In his opening remarks in the court session when #AlexMurdaugh got his sentence the judge said something like that of all the murderers who had sat before him he never heard someone who was able or willing to describe the very moment at which they turned into a murderer. I've been finding that thought very interesting ever since, the psychological search for the phenomenological moment in time after which you're a murderer, and before which you weren't: What happens in your mind at this exact moment? Here is someone who tries to give that answer - and yet apparently veeres off in the end. But the text does answer one other question, the one as to my motives:
After all, since meeting #Macarthur and beginning to write about those crimes, I myself had been preoccupied with a similar problem: how does one turn a life [...] into a story?
Because that's what I've been preoccupied with for the past couple of years. Not mine, of course, but life is life, after all.
Btw. I'm pretty sure the answer to the question will be completely banal.
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