#Rational #Suicide
There is no rational reason for me to go on living. I have nothing to look forward to but #suffering, #pain, #misery and #death. My life has been getting worse, relentlessly for more than 25 years. There are no signs of things "turning around." Everything I liked about being alive is in the past. My suffering is going to increase, and accelerate now. It's just a fact. I could #delude myself into a #fantasy that some part of my life is worth living. The delusion will be costly, and when I am no longer able to maintain the delusion, I will be worse off for having deluded myself. For a short period of time I can have delusional #happiness, but when it can no longer be maintained, I will be even more #miserable.

It makes sense for me to take the delusion, however. So long as I accept that it will come at the cost of a quick suicide when it can no longer be maintained. This translates to something akin to: buying a #gun and as much #marijuana as possible. Then smoking marijuana and having a good time until I am out of money. Then killing myself before I have to continue and face the consequences of the delusion. Or maybe #opiates of some sort? I am not sure what delivers the most false happiness reliably. This is the reasonable path of action.